Chapter 47
SOME weeks passed without bringing any change. We waited for
Wemmick, and he made no sign. If I had never known him out of
Little Britain, and had never enjoyed the privilege of being on a
familiar footing at the Castle, I might have doubted him; not so for
a moment, knowing him as I did.
My worldly affairs began to wear a gloomy appearance, and I was
pressed for money by more than one creditor. Even I myself began
to know the want of money (I mean of ready money in my own
pocket), and to relieve it by converting some easily spared articles
of jewellery into cash. But I had quite determined that it would be a
heartless fraud to take more money from my patron in the existing
state of my uncertain thoughts and plans. Therefore, I had sent him
the unopened pocket-book by Herbert, to hold in his own keeping
and I felt a kind of satisfaction -- whether it was a false kind or a
true, I hardly know -- in not having profited by his generosity since
his revelation of himself.
As the time wore on, an impression settled heavily upon me that
Estella was married. Fearful of having it confirmed, though it was
all but a conviction, I avoided the newspapers, and begged Herbert
(to whom I had confided the circumstances of our last interview)
never to speak of her to me. Why I hoarded up this last wretched
little rag of the robe of hope that was rent and given to the winds,
how do I know! Why did you who read this, commit that not dis-
similar inconsistency of your own, last year, last month, last week?
It was an unhappy life that I lived, and its one dominant anxiety,
towering over all its other anxieties like a high mountain above a
range of mountains, never disappeared from my view. Still, no new
cause for fear arose. Let me start from my bed as I would, with the
terror fresh upon me that he was discovered; let me sit listening as
I would, with dread, for Herbert's returning step at night, lest it
should be fleeter than ordinary, and winged with evil news; for all
that, and much more to like purpose, the round of things went on.
Condemned to inaction and a state of constant restlessness and
suspense, I rowed about in my boat, and waited, waited, waited, as
I best could.
There were states of the tide when, having been down the river,
I could not get back through the eddy-chafed arches and starlings
of old London Bridge; then, I left my boat at a wharf near the
Custom House, to be brought up afterwards to the Temple stairs.
I was not averse to doing this, as it served to make me and my boat
a commoner incident among the water-side people there. From this
slight occasion, sprang two meetings that I have now to tell of.
One afternoon, late in the month of February, I came ashore at
the wharf at dusk. I had pulled down as far as Greenwich with the
ebb tide, and had turned with the tide. It had been a fine bright day,
but had become foggy as the sun dropped, and I had had to feel my
way back among the shipping, pretty carefully. Both in going and
returning, I had seen the signal in his window, All well.
As it was a raw evening and I was cold, I thought I would com-
fort myself with dinner at once; and as I had hours of dejection and
solitude before me if I went home to the Temple, I thought I would
afterwards go to the play. The theatre where Mr Wopale had
achieved his questionable triumph, was in that waterside neigh-
bourhood (it is nowhere now), and to that theatre I resolved to go.
I was aware that Mr Wopsle had not succeeded in reviving the
Drama, but, on the contrary, had rather partaken of its decline.
He had been ominously heard of, through the playbills, as a faithful
Black, in connexion with a little girl of noble birth, and a monkey.
And Herbert had seen him as a predatory Tartar of comic propen-
sities, with a face like a red brick, and an outrageous hat all over
bells.
I dined at what Herbert and I used to call a Geographical chop-
house -- where there were maps of the world in porter-pot rims on
every half-yard of the table-cloths, and charts of graW on every
one of the knives -- to this day there is scarcely a single chop-house
within the Lord Mayor's dominions which is not Geographical --
and wore out the time in dozing over crumbs, staring at gas, and
baking in a hot blast of dinners. By-and-by, I roused myself and
went to the play.
There, I found a virtuous boatswain in his Majesty's service -- a
most excellent man, though I could have wished his trousers not
quite so tight in some places and not quite so loose in others -- who
knocked all the little men's hats over their eyes, though he was
very generous and brave, and who wouldn't hear of anybody's
paying taxes, though he was very patriotic. He had a bag of money
in his pocket, like a pudding in the cloth, and on that property
married a young person in bed-furniture, with great rejoicings;
the whole population of Portsmouth (nine in number at the last
Census) turning out on the beach, to rub their own hands and
shake everybody else's, and sing `Fill, fill!' A certain dark-com-
plexioned Swab, however, who wouldn't fill, or do anything else
that was proposed to him, and whose heart was openly stated (by
the boatswain) to be as black as his figure-head, proposed to two
other Swabs to get all mankind into difficulties; which was so
effectually done (the Swab family having considerable political in-
fluence) that it took half the evening to set things right, and then it
was only brought about through an honest little grocer with a
white hat, black gaiters, and red nose, getting into a clock, with a
gridiron, and listening, and coming out, and knocking everybody
down from behind with the gridiron whom he couldn't confute
with what he had overheard. This led to Mr Wopsle's (who had
never been heard of before) coming in with a star and garter on, as
a plenipotentiary of great power direct from the Admiralty, to say
that the Swabs were all to go to prison on the spot, and that he had
brought the boatswain down the Union Jack, as a slight acknow-
ledgment of his public services. The boatswain, unmanned for the
first time, respectfully dried his eyes on the Jack, and then cheering
up and addressing Mr Wopsle as Your Honour, solicited permis-
sion to take him by the fin. Mr Wopsle conceding his fin with a
gracious dignity, was immediately shoved into a dusty corner
while everybody danced a hornpipe; and from that corner, sur-
veying the public with a discontented eye, became aware of me.
The second piece was the last new grand comic Christmas
pantomime, in the first scene of which, it pained me to suspect that
I detected Mr Wopsle with red worsted legs under a highly magni-
fied phosphoric countenance and a shock of red curtain-fringe for
his hair, engaged in the manufacture of thunderbolts in a mine,
and displaying great cowardice when his gigantic master came
home (very hoarse) to dinner. But he presently presented himself
under worthier circumstances; for, the Genius of Youthful Love
being in want of assistance -- on account of the parental brutality of
an ignorant farmer who opposed the choice of his daughter's heart,
by purposely falling upon the object, in a flour sack, out of the first-
floor window -- summoned a sententious Enchanter; and he, coming
up from the antipodes rather unsteadily, after an apparently violent
journey, proved to be Mr Wopsle in a high-crowned hat, with a
necromantic work in one volume under his arm. The business of
this enchanter on earth, being principally to be talked at, sung at,
butted at, danced at, and flashed at with fires of various colours,
he had a good deal of time on his hands. And I observed with great
surprise, that he devoted it to staring in my direction as if he were
lost in amazement.
There was something so remarkable in the increasing glare of
Mr Wopsle's eye, and he seemed to be turning so many things over
in his mind and to grow so confused, that I could not make it out.
I sat thinking of it, long after he had ascended to the clouds in a
large watch-case, and still I could not make it out. I was still think-
ing of it when I came out of the theatre an hour afterwards, and
found him waiting for me near the door.
`How do you do?' said I, shaking hands with him as we turned
down the street together. `I saw that you saw me.'
`Saw you, Mr Pip!' he returned. `Yes, of course I saw you. But
who else was there?'
`Who else?'
`It is the strangest thing,' said Mr Wopsle, drifting into his lost
look again; `and yet I could swear to him.'
Becoming alarmed, I entreated Mr Wopsle to explain his meaning.
`Whether I should have noticed him at first but for your being
there,' said Mr Wopsle, going on in the same lost way, `I can't be
positive; yet I think I should.'
Involuntarily I looked round me, as I was accustomed to look
round me when I went home; for, these mysterious words gave me
a chill.
`Oh! He can't be in sight,' said Mr Wopsle. `He went out, before
I went off, I saw him go.'
Having the reason that I had, for being suspicious, I even sus-
pected this poor actor. I mistrusted a design to entrap me into some
admission. Therefore, I glanced at him as we walked on together,
but said nothing.
`I had a ridiculous fancy that he must be with you, Mr Pip, till I
saw that you were quite unconscious of him, sitting behind you
there, like a ghost.'
My former chill crept over me again, but I was resolved not to
speak yet, for it was quite consistent with his words that he might
be set on to induce me to connect these references with Provis. Of
course, I was perfectly sure and safe that Provis had not been there.
`I dare say you wonder at me, Mr Pip; indeed I see you do. But
it is so very strange! You'll hardly believe what I am going to tell
you. I could hardly believe it myself, if you told me.'
`Indeed?' said I.
`No, indeed. Mr Pip, you remember in old times a certain Christ-
mas Day, when you were quite a child, and I dined at Gargery's,
and some soldiers came to the door to get a pair of handcuffs
mended ? '
`I remember it very well.'
`And you remember that there was a chase after two convicts,
and that we joined in it, and that Gargery took you on his back, and
that I took the lead and you kept up with me as well as you could?'
`I remember it all very well.' Better than he thought -- except the
last clause.
`And you remember that we came up with the two in a ditch, and
that there was a scuffle between them, and that one of them had
been severely handled and much mauled about the face, by the
other ? '
`I see it all before me.'
`And that the soldiers lighted torches, and put the two in the
centre, and that we went on to see the last of them, over the black
marshes, with the torchlight shining on their faces -- I am particular
about that; with the torchlight shining on their faces, when there
was an outer ring of dark night all about us?'
`Yes,' said I. `I remember all that.'
`Then Mr Pip, one of those two prisoners sat behind you to-
night. I saw him over your shoulder.'
`Steady!' I thought. I asked him then, `Which of the two do you
suppose you saw ?'
`The one who had been mauled,' he answered readily, `and I'll
swear I saw him! The more I think of him, the more certain I am
of him.'
`This is very curious!' said I, with the best assumption I
could put on, of its being nothing more to me. `Very curious
indeed!'
I cannot exaggerate the enhanced disquiet into which this con-
versation threw me, or the special and peculiar terror I felt at
Compeyson's having been behind me `like a ghost.' For, if he had
ever been out of my thoughts for a few moments together since the
hiding had begun, it was in those very moments when he was clos-
est to me; and to think that I should be so unconscious and off my
guard after all my care, was as if I had shut an avenue of a hundred
doors to keep him out, and then had found him at my elbow. I
could not doubt either that he was there, because I was there, and
that however alight an appearance of danger there might be about
us, danger was always near and active.
I put such questions to Mr Wopsle as, When did the man come
in? He could not tell me that; he saw me, and over my shoulder
he saw the man. It was not until he had seen him for some time that
he began to identify him; but he had from the first vaguely asso-
ciated him with me, and known him as somehow belonging to me
in the old village time. How was he dressed? Prosperously, but not
noticeably otherwise; he thought, in black. Was his face at all dis-
figured? No, he believed not. I believed not, too, for, although in
my brooding state I had taken no especial notice of the people be-
hind me, I thought it likely that a face at all disfigured would have
attracted my attention.
When Mr Wopsle had imparted to me all that he could recall or I
extract, and when I had treated him to a ittle appropriate refresh-
ment after the fatigues of the evening, we parted. It was between
twelve and one o'clock when I reached the Temple, and the gates
were shut. No one was near me when I went in and went home.
Herbert had come in, and we held a very serious council by the
fire. But there was nothing to be done, saving to communicate to
Wemmick what I had that night found out, and to remind him that
we waited for his hint. As I thought chat I might compromise him
if I went too often to the Castle, I made this communication by
letter. I wrote it before I went to bed, and went out and posted it;
and again no one was near me. Herbert and I agreed that we could
do nothing else but be very cautious. And we were very cautious
indeed -- more cautious than before, if that were possible -- and I
for my part never went near Chinks's Basin, except when I rowed
by, and then I only looked at Mill Pond Bank as I looked at any-
thing else.
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