Chapter 27
MY DEAR MR PIP,
`I write this by request of Mr Gargery, for to let you know that
he is going to London in company with Mr Wopsle and would be glad
if agreeable to be allowed to see you. He would call at Barnard's Hotel
Tuesday morning at nine o'clock, when if not agreeable please leave
word. Your poor sister is much the same as when you left. We talk of
you in the kitchen every night, and wonder what you are saying and
doing. If now considered in the light of a liberty, excuse it for the love
of poor old days. No more, dear Mr Pip, from
`Your ever obliged, and affectionate servant,
BIDDY.
`P.S. He wishes me most particular to write what larks. He says
you will understand. I hope and do not doubt it will be agreeable to
see him even though a gentleman, for you had ever a good heart, and
he is a worthy worthy man. I have read him all excepting only the last
little sentence, and he wishes me most particular to write again what
larks.'
I received this letter by post on Monday morning, and therefore
its appointment was for next day. Let me confess exactly, with what
feelings I looked forward to Joe's coming.
Not with pleasure, though I was bound to him by so many ties;
no; with considerable disturbance, some mortification, and a keen
sense of incongruity. If I could have kept him away by paying
money, I certainly would have paid money. My greatest reassurance
was, that he was coming to Barnard's Inn, not to Hammersmith,
and consequently would not fall in Bentley Drummle's way. I
had little objection to his being seen by Herbert or his father, for
both of whom I had a respect; but I had the sharpest sensitiveness
as to his being seen by Drummle, whom I held in contempt. So,
throughout life, our worst weaknesses and meannesses are usually
committed for the sake of the people whom we most despise.
I had begun to be always decorating the chambers in some
quite unnecessary and inappropriate way or other, and very expen-
sive those wrestles with Barnard proved to be. By this time, the
rooms were vastly different from what I had found them, and I
enjoyed the honour of occupying a few prominent pages in the
books of a neighbouring upholsterer. I had got on so fast of late,
that I had even started a boy in boots -- top boots -- in bondage
and slavery to whom I might have been said to pass my days.
for, after I had made the monster (out of the refuse of my washer-
woman's family) and had clothed him with a blue coat, canary
waistcoat, white cravat, creamy breeches, and the boots already
mentioned, I had to find him a little to do and a great deal to eat;
and with both of those horrible requirements he haunted my
existence.
This avenging phantom was ordered to be on duty at eight on
Tuesday morning in the hall (it was two feet square, as charged for
floorcloth), and Herbert suggested certain things for breakfast that
he thought Joe would like. While I felt sincerely obliged to him
for being so interested and considerate, I had an odd half-provoked
sense of suspicion upon me, that if Joe had been coming to see
him, he wouldn't have been quite so brisk about it.
However, I came into town on the Monday night to be ready
for Joe, and I got up early in the morning, and caused the sitting-
room and breakfast-table to assume their most splendid appear-
ance. Unfortunately the morning was drizzly, and an angel could
not have concealed the fact that Barnard was shedding sooty tears
outside the window, like some weak giant of a Sweep.
As the time approached I should have liked to run away, but the
Avenger pursuant to orders was in the hall, and presently I heard
Joe on the staircase. I knew it was Joe, by his clumsy manner of
coming up-stairs -- his state boots being always too big for him --
and by the time it took him to read the names on the other floors
in the course of his ascent. When at last he stopped outside our
door, I could hear his finger tracing over the painted letters of my
name, and I afterwards distinctly heard him breathing in at the
keyhole. Finally he gave a faint single rap, and Pepper -- such was
the compromising name of the avenging boy -- announced `Mr
Gargery!' I thought he never would have done wiping his feet,
and that I must have gone out to lift him off the mat, but at last he
came in.
`Joe, how are you, Joe?'
`Pip, how AIR you, Pip?'
With his good honest face all glowing and shining, and his hat
put down on the floor between us, he caught both my hands and
worked them straight up and down, as if I had been the last-
patented Pump.
`I am glad to see you, Joe. Give me your hat.'
But Joe, taking it up carefully with both hands, like a bird's-nest
with eggs in it, wouldn't hear of parting with that piece of property,
and persisted in standing talking over it in a most uncomfortable
way.
`Which you have that growed,' said Joe, `and that swelled, and
that gentle-folked;' Joe considered a little before he discovered this
word; `as to be sure you are a honour to your king and country.'
`And you, Joe, look wonderfully well.'
`Thank God,' said Joe, `I'm ekerval to most. And your sister,
she's no worse than she were. And Biddy, she's ever right and
ready. And all friends is no backerder, if not no fomrder. 'Ceptin'
Wopsle; he's had a drop.'
All this time (still with both hands taking great care of the bird's-
nest), Joe was rolling his eyes round and round the room, and
round and round the flowered pattern of my dressing-gown.
`Had a drop, Joe?'
`Why yes,' said Joe, lowering his voice, `he's left the Church,
and went into the playacting. Which the playacting have likeways
brought him to London along with me. And his wish were,' said
Joe, getting the bird's-nest under his left arm for the moment
and groping in it for an egg with his right; `if no offence, as I
would 'and you that.'
I took what Joe gave me, and found it to be the crumpled play-
bill of a small metropolitan theatre, announcing the first appear-
ance, in that very week, of `the celebrated Provincial Amateur of
Roscian renown, whose unique performance in the highest tragic
walk of our National Bard has lately occasioned so great a sensation
in local dramatic circles.'
`Were you at his performance, Joe?' I inquired.
`I were,' said Joe, with emphasis and solemnity.
`Was there a great sensation? '
`Why,' said Joe, `yes, there certainly were a peck of orange-
peel. Partickler, when he see the ghost. Though I put it to yourself,
sir, whether it were calc'lated to keep a man up to his work with a
good hart, to be continiwally cutting in betwixt him and the
Ghost with ``Amen!'' A man may have had a misfortun' and been
in the Church,' said Joe, lowering his voice to an argumentative and
feeling tone, `but that is no reason why you should put him out
at such a time. Which I meantersay, if the ghost of a man's own
father cannot be allowed to claim his attention, what can, Sir?
Still more, when his mourning 'at is unfortunately made so small
as that the weight of the black feathers brings it off, try to keep it
on how you may.'
A ghost-seeing effect in Joe's own countenance informed me
that Herbert had entered the room. So, I presented Joe to Herbert,
who held out his hand; but Joe backed from it, and held on by the
bird's-nest.
`Your servant, Sir,' said Joe, `which I hope as you and Pip' --
here his eye fell on the Avenger, who was putting some toast on
table, and so plainly denoted an intention to make that young
gentleman one of the family, that I frowned it down and confused
him more -- `I meantersay, you two gentlemen -- which I hope
as you get your elths in this close spot? For the present may be a
werry good inn, according to London opinions,' said Joe, con-
fidentially, `and I believe its character do stand i; but I wouldn't
keep a pig in it myself-- not in the case that I wished him to futten
wholesome and to eat with a meller flavour on him.'
Having borne this flattering testimony to the merits of our
dwelling-place, and having incidentally shown this tendency to call
me `sir,' Joe, being invited to sit down to table, looked all round
the room for a suitable spot on which to deposit his hat -- as if it
were only on some very few rare substances in nature that it could
find a resting place -- and ultimately stood it on an extreme corner
of the chimney-piece, from which it ever afterwards fell off at
intervals.
`Do you take tea, or coffee, Mr Gargery?' asked Herbert, who
always presided of a morning.
`Thankee, Sir,' said Joe, stiff from head to foot, `I'll take which-
ever is most agreeable to yourself.'
`What do you say to coffee?'
`Thankee, Sir,' returned Joe, evidently dispirited by the pro-
posal, `since you are so kind as make chice of coffee, I will not run
contrairy to your own opinions. But don't you never find it a little
'eating? '
`Say tea then,' said Herbert, pouring it out.
Here Joe's hat tumbled off the mantel-piece, and he started out
of his chair and picked it up, and fitted it to the same exact spot.
As if it were an absolute point of good breeding that it should
tumble off again soon.
`When did you come to town, Mr Gargery?'
`Were it yesterday afternoon?' said Joe, after coughing behind
his hand, as if he had had time to catch the whooping-cough since
he came. `No it were not. Yes it were. Yes. It were yesterday after-
noon' (with an appearance of mingled wisdom, relief, and strict
impartiality).
`Have you seen anything of London, yet?'
`Why, yes, Sir,' said Joe, `me and Wopsle went off stmight to
look at the Blacking Ware'us. But we didn't find that it come up
to its likeness in the red bills at the shop doors; which I meantersay,'
added Joe, in an explanatory manner, `as it is there drawd too
architectooralooral.'
I really believe Joe would have prolonged this word (mightily
expressive to my mind of some architecture that I know) into a
perfect Chorus, but for his attention being providentially attracted
by his hat, which was toppling. Indeed, it demanded from him a
constant attention, and a quickness of eye and hand, very like that
exacted by wicket-keeping. He made extraordinary play with it,
and showed the greatest skill; now, rushing at it and catching it
neatly as it dropped; now, merely stopping it midway, beating it
up, and humouring it in various parts of the room and against a
good deal of the pattern of the paper on the wall, before he felt it
safe to close with it; finally, splashing it into the slop-basin, where
I took the liberty of laying hands upon it.
As to his shirt-collar, and his coat-collar, they were perplexing
to reflect upon -- insoluble mysteries both. Why should a man
scrape himself to that extent, before he could consider himself full
dressed? Why should he suppose it necessary to be purified by
suffering for his holiday clothes? Then he fell into such un-
accountable fits of meditation, with his fork midway between his
plate and his mouth; had his eyes attracted in such strange direc-
tions; was afflicted with such remarkable coughs; sat so fur from the
table, and dropped so much more than he ate, and pretended that
he hadn't dropped it; that I was heartily glad when Herbert left us
for the city.
I had neither the good sense nor the good feeling to know that this
was all my fuult, and that if I had been easier with Joe, Joe would
have been easier with me. I felt impatient of him and out of temper
with him; in which condition he heaped coals of fire on my head.
`Us two being now alone, Sir,' -- began Joe.
`Joe,' I interrupted, pettishly, `how can you call me, Sir?'
Joe looked at me for a single instant with something faintly like
reproach. Utterly preposterous as his cravat was, and as his collars
were, I was conscious of a sort of dignity in the look.
`Us two being now alone,' resumed Joe, `and me having the
intentions and abilities to stay not many minutes more, I will now
conclude -- leastways begin -- to mention what have led to my
having had the present honour. For was it not,' said Joe, with his
old air of lucid exposition, `that my only wish were to be useful to
you, I should not have had the honour of breaking wittles in the
company and abode of gentlemen.'
I was so unwilling to see the look again, that I made no remon-
strance against this tone.
`Well, Sir,' pursued Joe, `this is how it were. I were at the
Bargemen t'other night, Pip;' whenever he subsided into affection,
he called me Pip, and whenever he relapsed into politeness he called
me Sir; `when there come up in his shay-cart, Pumblechook.
Which that same identical,' said Joe, going down a new track,
`do comb my 'air the wrong way sometimes, awful, by giving out
up and down town as it were him which ever had your infant
companionation and were looked upon as a playfellow by yourself.'
`Nonsense. It was you, Joe.'
`Which I fully believed it were, Pip,' said Joe, slightly tossing
his head, `though it signify little now, Sir. Well, Pip; this same
identical, which his manners is given to blusterous, come to me at
the Bargemen (wot a pipe arid a pint of beer do give refreshment
to the working-man, Sir, and do not over stimilate), and his word
were, ``Joseph, Miss Havisham she wish to speak to you.'''
`Miss Havisham, Joe?'
```She wish,'' were Pumblechook's word, ``to speak to you.'''
Joe sat and rolled his eyes at the ceiling.
`Yes, Joe? Go on, please.'
`Next day, Sir,' said Joe, looking at me as if I were a long way
off, `having cleaned myself, I go and I see Miss A.'
`Miss A., Joe? Miss Havisham?'
`Which I say, Sir,' replied Joe, with an air of legal formality,
as if he were making his will, `Miss A., or otherways Havisham.
Her expression air then as follering: ``Mr Gargery. You air in
correspondence with Mr Pip?'' Having had a letter from you I
were able to say ``I am.'' (When I married your sister, Sir, I said ``I
will;'' and when I answered your friend, Pip, I said ``I am.'')
``Would you tell him, then,'' said she, ``that which Estella has
come home and would be glad to see him.'''
I felt my face fire up as I looked at Joe. I hope one remote cause
of its firing, may have been my consciousness that if I had known
his errand, I should have given him more encouragement.
`Biddy,' pursued Joe, `when I got home and asked her fur to
write the message to you, a little hung back. Biddy says, ``I know
he will be very glad to have it by word of mouth, it is holiday-
time, you want to see him, go!'' I have now concluded, Sir,' said
Joe, rising from his chair, `and, Pip, I wish you ever well and ever
prospering to a greater and a greater heighth.'
`But you are not going now, Joe?'
`Yes I am,' said Joe.
`But you are coming back to dinner, Joe?'
`No I am not,' said Joe.
Our eyes met, and all the `Sir' melted out of that manly heart as
he gave me his hand.
`Pip, dear old chap, life is made of ever so many partings welded
together, as I may say, and one man's a blacksmith, and one's a
whitesmith, and one's a goldsmith, and one's a coppersmith.
Diwisions among such must come, and must be met as they come.
If there's been any fuult at all to-day, it's mine. You and me is not
two figures to be together in London; nor yet anywheres else but
what is private, and beknown, and understood among friends. It
ain't that I am proud, but that I want to be right, as you shall never
see me no more in these clothes. I'm wrong in these clothes. I'm
wrong out of the forge, the kitchen, or off th' meshes. You won't
find half so much fault in me if you think of me in my forge dress,
with my hammer in my hand, or even my pipe. You won't find half
so much fuult in me if, supposing as you should ever wish to see
me, you come and put your head in at the forge window and see
Joe the blacksmith, there, at the old anvil, in the old burnt apron,
sticking to the old work. I'm awful dull, but I hope I've beat out
something nigh the rights of this at last. And so GOD bless you,
dear old Pip, old chap, GOD bless you!'
I had not been mistaken in my funcy that there was a simple
dignity in him. The fashion of his dress could no more come in its
way when he spoke these words, than it could come in its way in
Heaven. He touched me gently on the forehead, and went out. As
soon as I could recover myself sufficiently, I hurried out after him
and looked for him in the neighbouring streets; but he was gone.
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