Chapter 22
THE pale young gentleman and I stood contemplating one another
in Barnard's Inn, until we both burst out laughing. `The idea of its
being you!' said he. `The idea of its being you!' said I. And then
we contemplated one another afresh, and laughed again. `Well!'
said the pale young gentleman, reaching out his hand good-
humouredly, `it's all over now, I hope, and it will be magnanimous
in you if you'll forgive me for having knocked you about so.'
I derived from this speech that Mr Herbert Pocket (for Herbert
was the pale young gentleman's name) still rather confounded his
intention with his execution. But I made a modest reply, and we
shook hands warmly.
`You hadn't come into your good fortune at that time?' said
Herbert Pocket.
`No,' said I.
`No,' he acquiesced: `I heard it had happened very lately. I was
rather on the look-out for good-fortune then.'
`Indeed?'
`Yes. Miss Havisham had sent for me, to see if she could take a
fancy to me. But she couldn't -- at all events, she didn't.'
I thought it polite to remark that I was surprised to hear that.
`Dad taste,' said Herbert, laughing, `but a fact. Yes, she had sent
for me on a trial visit, and if I had come out of it successfully, I
suppose I should have been provided for; perhaps I should have
been what-you-may-called it to Estella.'
`What's that? ' I asked, with sudden gravity.
He was arranging his fruit in plates while we talked, which
divided his attention, and was the cause of his having made this
lapse of a word. `Affianced,' he explained, still busy with the
fruit. `Betrothed. Engaged. What's-his-named. Any word of that
sort'
`How did you bear your disappointment?' I asked.
`Pooh!' said he, `I didn't care much for it. She's a Tartar.'
`Miss Havisham?'
`I don't say no to that, but I meant Estella. That girl's hard and
haughty and capricious to the last degree, and has been brought up
by Miss Havisham to wreak revenge on all the male sex.'
`What relation is she to Miss Havisham?'
`None,' said he. `Only adopted.'
`Why should she wreak revenge on all the male sex? What
revenge ? '
`Lord, Mr Pip!' said he. `Don't you know?'
`No,' said I.
`Dear me! It's quite a story, and shall be saved till dinner-time.
And now let me take the liberty of asking you a question. How did
you come there, that day?'
I told him, and he was attentive until I had finished, and then
burst out laughing again, and asked me if I was sore afterwards?
I didn't ask him if he was, for my conviction on that point was
perfectly established.
`Mr Jaggers is your guardian, I understand?' he went on.
`Yes.'
`You know he is Miss Havisham's man of business and solicitor,
and has her confidence when nobody else has?'
This was bringing me (I felt) towards dangerous ground. I
answered with a constraint I made no attempt to disguise, that I
had seen Mr Jaggers in Miss Havisham's house on the very day of
our combat, but never at any other time, and that I believed he had
no recollection of having ever seen me there.
`He was so obliging as to suggest my father for your tutor, and
he called on my father to propose it. Of course he knew about my
father from his connexion with Miss Havisham. My father is Miss
Havisham's cousin; not that that implies familiar intercourse
between them, for he is a bad courtier and will not propitiate her.'
Herbert Pocket had a frank and easy way with him that was
very taking. I had never seen any one then, and I have never seen
any one since, who more strongly expressed to me, in every look
and tone, a natural incapacity to do anything secret and mean.
There was something wonderfully hopeful about his general air,
and something that at the same time whispered to me he would
never be very successful or rich. I don't know how this was. I
became imbued with the notion on that first occasion before we sat
down to dinner, but I cannot define by what means.
He was still a pale young gentleman, and had a certain conquered
languor about him in the midst of his spirits and briskness, that did
not seem indicative of natural strength. He had not a handsome
fuce, but it was better than handsome: being extremely amiable
and cheerful. His figure was a little ungainly, as in the days when
my knuckles had taken such liberties with it, but it looked as if it
would always be light and young. Whether Mr Trabb's local work
would have sat more gracefully on him than on me, may be a
question; but I am conscious that he carried off his rather old
clothes, much better than I catuied off my new suit.
As he was so communicative, I felt that reserve on my part would
be a bad return unsuited to our years. I therefore told him my small
story, and laid stress on my being forbidden to inquire who my
benefactor was. I further mentioned that as I had been brought up a
blacksmith in a country place, and knew very little of the ways of
politeness, I would take it as a great kindness in him if he would
give me a hint whenever he saw me at a loss or going wrong.
`With pleasure,' said he, `though I venture to prophesy that
you'll want very few hints. I dare say we shall be often together,
and I should like to banish any needless restraint between us.
Will you do me the favour to begin at once to call me by my
christian name, Herbert?'
I thanked him, and said I would. I informed him in exchange
that my christian name was Philip.
`I don't take to Philip,' said he, smiling, `for it sounds like a
moral boy out of the spelling-book, who was so lazy that he fell
into a pond, or so fat that he couldn't see out of his eyes, or so
avaricious that he locked up his cake till the mice ate it, or so
determined to go a bird's-nesting that he got himself eaten by
bears who lived handy in the neighbourhood. I tell you what I
should like. We are so harmonious, and you have been a blacksmith
-- would you mind it?'
`I shouldn't mind anything that you propose,' I answered, `but I
don't understand you.'
`Would you mind Handel for a familiar name? There's a charm-
ing piece of music by Handel, called the Harmonious Blacksmith.'
`I should like it very much.'
`Then, my dear Handel,' said he, turning round as the door
opened, `here is the dinner, and I must beg of you to take the top
of the table, because the dinner is of your providing.'
This I would not hear of, so he took the top, and I faced him.
It was a nice little dinner -- seemed to me then, a very Lord Mayor's
Feast -- and it acquired additional relish from being eaten under
those independent circumstances, with no old people by, and with
London all around us. This again was heightened by a certain gipsy
character that set the banquet off; for, while the table was, as Mr
Pumblechook might have said, the lap of luxury -- being entirely
furnished forth from the coffee-house -- the circumjacent region of
sitting-room was of a comparatively pastureless and shifty charac-
ter: imposing on the waiter the wandering habits of putting the
covers on the floor (where he fell over them), the melted butter in
the armchair, the bread on the bookshelves, the cheese in the coal-
scuttle, and the boiled fowl into my bed in the next room -- where I
found much of its parsley and butter in a state of congelation when
I retired for the night. All this made the feast delightful, and when
the waiter was not there to watch me, my pleasure was without
alloy.
We had made some progress in the dinner, when I reminded
Herbert of his promise to tell me about Miss Havisham.
`True,' he replied. `I'll redeem it at once. Let me introduce the
topic, Handel, by mentioning that in London it is not the custom
to put the knife in the mouth -- for fear of accidents -- and that while
the fork is reserved for that use, it is not put further in than neces-
sary. It is scarcely worth mentioning, only it's as well to do as other
people do. Also, the spoon is not generally used over-hand, but
under. This has two advantages. You get at your mouth better
(which after all is the object), and you save a good deal of the
attitude of opening oysters, on the part of the right elbow.'
He offered these friendly suggestions in such a lively way, that
we both laughed and I scarcely blushed.
`Now,' he pursued, `concerning Miss Havisham. Miss Havisham,
you must know, was a spoilt child. Her mother died when she was a
baby, and her father denied her nothing. Her father was a country
gentleman down in your part of the world, and was a brewer.
I don't know why it should be a crack thing to be a brewer; but it is
indisputable that while you cannot possibly be genteel and bake,
you may be as genteel as never was and brew. You see it every day.'
`Yet a gentleman may not keep a public-house; may he?' said I.
`Not on any account,' returned Herbert; `but a public-house
may keep a gentleman. Well! Mr Havisham was very rich and very
proud. So was his daughter.'
`Miss Havisham was an only child ?' I hazarded.
`Stop a moment, I am coming to that. No, she was not an only
child; she had a half-brother. Her father privately married again --
his cook, I rather think.'
`I thought he was proud,' said I.
`My good Handel, so he was. He married his second wife
privately, because he was proud, and in course of time she died.
When she was dead, I apprehend he first told his daughter what
he had done, and then the son became a part of the family, residing
in the house you are acquainted with. As the son grew a young
man, he turned out riotous, extravagant, undutiful -- altogether bad.
At last his father disinherited him; but he softened when he was
dying, and left him well off, though not nearly so well off as Miss
Havisham. -- Take another glass of wine, and excuse my mentioning
that society as a body does not expect one to be so strictly con-
scientious in emptying one's glass, as to turn it bottom upwards
with the rim on one's nose.'
I had been doing this, in an excess of attention to his recital.
I thanked him, and apologized. He said, `Not at all,' and resumed.
`Miss Havisham was now an heiress, and you may suppose was
looked after as a great match. Her half-brother had now ample
means again, but what with debts and what with new madness
wasted them most fearfully again. There were stronger differences
between him and her, than there had been between him and his
father, and it is suspected that he cherished a deep and mortal
grudge against her, as having influenced the father's anger. Now,
I come to the cruel part of the story -- merely breaking off, my dear
Handel, to remark that a dinner-napkin will not go into a tumbler.'
Why I was trying to pack mine into my tumbler, I am wholly
unable to say. I only know that I found myself, with a perseverance
worthy of a much better cause, making the most strenuous
exertions to compress it within those limits. Again I thanked him
and apologized, and again he said in the cheerfullest manner,
`Not at all, I am sure!' and resumed.
`There appeared upon the scene -- say at the races, or the public
balls, or anywhere else you like -- a certain man, who made love to
Miss Havisham. I never saw him, for this happened five-and-
twenty years ago (before you and I were, Handel), but I have
heard my father mention that he was a showy-man, and the kind of
man for the purpose. But that he was not to be, without ignorance
or prejudice, mistaken for a gentleman, my futher most strongly
asseverates; because it is a principle of his that no man who was
not a true gentleman at heart, ever was, since the world began, a
true gentleman in manner. He says, no varnish can hide the grain
of the wood; and that the more varnish you put on, the more the
grain will express itself. Well! This man pursued Miss Havisham
closely, and professed to be devoted to her. I believe she had not
shown much susceptibility up to that time; but all the susceptibility
she possessed, certainly came out then, and she passionately loved
him. There is no doubt that she perfectly idolized him. He practised
on her affection in that systematic way, that he got great sums of
money from her, and he induced her to buy her brother out of a
share in the brewery (which had been weakly left him by his father)
at an immense price, on the plea that when he was her husband he
must hold and manage it all. Your guardian was not at that time
in Miss Havisham's councils, and she was too haughty and too
much in love, to be advised by any one. Her relations were poor
and scheming, with the exception of my father; he was poor
enough, but not time-serving or jealous. The only independent one
among them, he warned her that she was doing too much for this
man, and was placing herself too unreservedly in his power. She
took the first opportunity of angrily ordering my father out of the
house, in his presence, and my futher has never seen her since.'
I thought of her having said, `Matthew will come and see me at
last when I am laid dead upon that table;' and I asked Herbert
whether his father was so inveterate against her?
`It's not that,' said he, `but she charged him, in the presence of
her intended husband, with being disappointed in the hope of
fawning upon her for his own advancement, and, if he were to go
to her now, it would look true -- even to him -- and even to her.
To return to the man and make an end of him. The marriage day
was fixed, the wedding dresses were bought, the wedding tour was
planned out, the wedding guests were invited. The day came, but
not the bridegroom. He wrote her a letter --'
`Which she received,' I struck in, `when she was dressing for her
marriage? At twenty minutes to nine?'
`At the hour and minute,' said Herbert, nodding, `at which she
afterwards stopped all the clocks. What was in it, further than that
it most heartlessly broke the marriage off, I can't tell you, because
I don't know. When she recovered from a bad illness that she had,
she laid the whole place waste, as you have seen it, and she has
never since looked upon the light of day.'
`Is that all the story?' I asked, after considering it.
`All I know of it; and indeed I only know so much, through
precing it out for myself; for my father always avoids it, and, even
when Miss Havisham invited me to go there, told me no more of it
than it was absolutely requisite I should understand. But I have
forgotten one thing. It has been supposed that the man to whom
she gave her misplaced confidence, acted throughout in concert
with her half-brother; that it was a conspimcy between them; and
that they shared the profits.'
`I wonder he didn't marry her and get all the property,' said I.
`He may have been married already, and her cruel mortification
may have been a part of her half-brother's scheme,' said Herbert.
`Mind! I don't know that.'
`What became of the two men ? ' I asked, after again considering
the subject.
`They fell into deeper shame and degradation -- if there can be
deeper -- and ruin.'
`Are they alive now?'
`I don't know.'
`You said just now, that Estella was not related to Miss Havisham,
but adopted. When adopted?'
Herbert shrugged his shoulders. `There has always been an
Estella, since I have heard of a Miss Havisham. I know no more.
And now, Handel,' said he, finally throwing off the story as it
were, `there is a perfectly open understanding between us. All that
I know about Miss Havisham, you know.'
`And all that I know,' I retorted, `you know.'
`I fully believe it. So there can be no competition or perplexity
between you and me. And as to the condition on which you hold
your advancement in life -- namely, that you are not to inquire or
discuss to whom you owe it -- you may be very sure that it will
never be encroached upon, or even approached, by me, or by any
one belonging to me.'
In truth, he said this with so much delicacy, that I felt the subject
done with, even though I should be under his father's roof for
years and years to come. Yet he said it with so much meaning, too,
that I felt he as perfectly understood Miss Havisham to be my
benefactress, as I understood the fact myself.
It had not occurred to me before, that he had led up to the theme
for the purpose of clearing it out of our way; but we were so much
the lighter and easier for having broached it, that I now perceived
this to be the case. We were very gay and sociable, and I asked
him, in the course of conversation, what he was? He replied, `A
capitalist -- an Insurer of Ships.' I suppose he saw me glancing
about the room in search of some tokens of Shipping, or capital,
for he added, `In the City.'
I had grand ideas of the wealth and importance of Insurers of
Ships in the City, and I began to think with awe, of having laid a
young Insurer on his back, blackened his enterprising eye, and cut
his responsible head open. But, again, there came upon me, for my
relief that odd impression that Herbert Pocket would never be
very successful or rich.
`I shall not rest satisfied with merely employing my capital in
insuring ships. I shall buy up some good Life Assurance shares,
and cut into the Direction. I shall also do a little in the mining way.
None of these things will interfere with my chartering a few
thousand tons on my own account. I think I shall trade,' said he,
leaning back in his chair, `to the East Indies, for silks, shawls,
spices, dyes, drugs, and precious woods. It's an interesting trade.'
`And the profits are large?' said I.
`Tremendous!' said he.
I wavered again, ana began to think here were greater expecta-
tions than my own.
`I think I shall trade, also,' said he, putting his thumbs in his
waistcoat pockets, `to the West Indies, for sugar, tobacco, and
rum. Also to Ceylon, specially for elephants' tusks.'
`You will want a good many ships,' said I.
`A perfect fleet,' said he.
Quite overpowered by the magnificence of these transactions, I
asked him where the ships he insured mostly traded to at present?
`I haven't begun insuring yet,' he replied. `I am looking
about me.'
Somehow, that pursuit seemed more in keeping with Barnard's
Inn. I said (in a tone of conviction), `Ah-h!'
`Yes. I am in a counting-house, and looking about me.'
`Is a counting-house profitable?' I asked.
`To -- do you mean to the young fellow who's in it?' he asked,
in reply.
`Yes; to you.'
`Why, n-no: not to me.' He said this with the air of one carefully
reckoning up and striking a balance. `Not directly profitable. That
is. it doesn't pay me anything, and I have to -- keep myself.'
This certainly had not a profitable appearance, and I shook my
head as if I would imply that it would be difficult to lay by much
accumulative capital from such a source of income.
`But the thing is,' said Herbert Pocket, `that you look about you.
That's the grand thing. You are in a counting-house, you know,
and you look about you.'
It struck me as a singular implication that you couldn't be out
of a counting-house, you know, and look about you; but I silently
deferred to his experience.
`Then the time comes,' said Herbert, `when you see your
opening. And you go in, and you swoop upon it and you make
your capital, and then there you are! When you have once made
your capital, you have nothing to do but employ it.'
This was very like his way of conducting that encounter in the
garden; very like. His manner of bearing his poverty, too, exactly
corresponded to his manner of bearing that defeat. It seemed to me
that he took all blows and buffets now, with just the same air as
he had taken mine then. It was evident that he had nothing around
him but the simplest necessaries, for everything that I remarked
upon turned out to have been sent in on my account from the
coffee-house or somewhere else.
Yet, having already made his fortune in his own mind, he was so
unassuming with it that I felt quite grateful to him for not being
puffed up. It was a pleasant addition to his naturally pleasant ways,
and we got on famoualy. In the evening we went out for a walk
in the streets, and went half-price to the Theatre; and next day
we went to church at Westminster Abbey, and in the afternoon we
walked in the Parks; and I wondered who shod all the horses there,
and wished Joe did.
On a moderate computation, it was many months, that Sunday,
since I had left Joe and Biddy. The space interposed between my-
self and them, partook of that expansion, and our marshes were
any distance off. That I could have been at our old church in my
old church-going clothes, on the very last Sunday that ever was,
seemed a combination of impossibilities, geographical and social,
solar and lunar. Yet in the London streets, so crowded with people
and so brilliantly lighted in the dusk of evening, there were
depressing hints of reproaches for that I had put the poor old
kitchen at home so far away; and in the dead of night, the footsteps
of some incapable impostor of a porter mooning about Barnard's
Inn, under pretence of watching it, fell hollow on my heart.
On the Monday morning at a quarter before nine, Herbert went
to the counting-house to report himself -- to look about him, too,
I suppose -- and I bore him company. He was to come away in an
hour or two to attend me to Hammersmith, and I was to wait about
for him. It appeared to me that the eggs from which young lnsurers
were hatched, were incubated in dust and heat, like the eggs of
ostriches, judging from the places to which those incipient giants
repaired on a Monday morning. Nor did the counting-house where
Herbert assisted, show in my eyes as at all a good Observatory;
being a back second floor up a yard, of a grimy presence in all
particulars, and with a look into another back second floor, rather
than a look out.
I waited about until it was noon, and I went upon 'Change,
and I saw fluey men sitting there under the bills about shipping,
whom I took to be great merchants, though I couldn't understand
why they should all be out of spirits. When Herbert came, we went
and had lunch at a celebrated house which I then quite venerated,
but now believe to have been the most abject superstition in Europe,
and where I could not help noticing, even then, that there was
much more gravy on the tablecloths and knives and waiters' clothes,
than in the steaks. This collation disposed of at a moderate price
(considering the grease: which was not charged for), we went back
to Barnard's Inn and got my little portmanteau, and then took
coach for Hammersmith. We arrived there at two or three o'clock
in the afternoon, and had very little way to walk to Mr Pocket's
house. Lifting the latch of a gate, we passed direct into a little
garden overlooking the river, where Mr Pocket's children were
playing about. And unless I deceive myself on a point where my
interests or prepossessions are certainly not concerned, I saw that
Mr and Mrs Pocket's children were not growing up or being
brought up, but were tumbling up.
Mrs Pocket was sitting on a garden chair under a tree, reading,
with her legs upon another garden chair; and Mrs Pocket's
two nursemaids were looking about them while the children
played. `Mamma,' said Herbert, `this is young Mr Pip.' Upon
which Mrs Pocket received me with an appearance of amiable
dignity.
`Master Alick and Miss Jane,' cried one of the nurses to two of the
children `if you go a bouncing up against them bushes you'll fall
over into the river and be drownded, and what'll your pa say then?'
At the same time this nurse picked up Mrs Pocket's handkerchief,
and said, `If that don't make six times you've dropped it, Mum!'
Upon which Mrs Pocket laughed and said, `Thank you, Flopson,'
and settling herself in one chair only, resumed her book. Her
countenance immediately assumed a knitted and intent expression
as if she had been reading for a week, but before she could have
read half a dozen lines, she fixed her eyes upon me, and said, `I hope
your mamma is quite well?' This unexpected inquiry put me into
such a difficulty that I began saying in the absurdest way that if
there had been any such person I had no doubt she would have
been quite well and would have been very much obliged and would
have sent her compliments, when the nurse came to my rescue.
`Well!' she cried, picking up the pocket handkerchief, `if that
don't make seven times! What ARE you a doing of this afternoon,
Mum!' Mrs Pocket received her property, at first with a look of
unutterable surprise as if she had never seen it before, and then
with a laugh of recognition, and said, `Thank you, Flopson,' and
forgot me, and went on reading.
I found, now I had leisure to count them, that there were no
fewer than six little Pockets present, in various stages of tumbling
up. I had scarcely arrived at the total when a seventh was heard,
as in the region of air, wailing dolefully.
`If there ain't Baby!' said Flopson, appearing to think it most
surprising. `Make haste up, Millers.'
Millers, who was the other nurse, retired into the house, and by
degrees the child's wailing was hushed and stopped, as if it were a
young ventriloquist with something in its mouth. Mrs Pocket read
all the time, and I was curious to know what the book could be.
We were waiting, I supposed, for Mr Pocket to come out to us;
at any rate we waited there, and so I had an opportunity of observ-
ing the remarkable family phenomenon that whenever any of the
children strayed near Mrs Pocket in their play, they always tripped
themselves up and tumbled over her -- always very much to her
momentary astonishment, and their own more enduring lamenta-
tion. I was at a loss to account for this surprising circumstance,
and could not help giving my mind to speculations about it, until
by-and-by Millers came down with the baby, which baby was
handed to Flopson, which Flopson was handing it to Mrs Pocket,
when she too went fairly head foremost over Mrs Pocket, baby
and all, and was caught by Herbert and myself.
`Gracious me, Flopson!' said Mrs Pocket, looking off her book
for a moment, `everybody's tumblingl'
`Gracious you, indeed, Mum!' returned Flopson, very red in the
face; `what have you got there?'
`I got here, Flopson?' asked Mrs Pocket.
`Why, if it ain't your footstool!' cried Flopson. `And if you
keep it under your skirts like that, who's to help tumbling? Here!
Take the baby, Mum, and give me your book.'
Mrs Pocket acted on the advice, and inexpertly danced the infant
a little in her lap, while the other children played about it. This had
lasted but a very short time, when Mrs Pocket issued summary
orders that they were all to be taken into the house for a nap. Thus
I made the second discovery on that first occasion, that the nurture
of the little Pockets consisted of alternately tumbling up and lying
down.
Under these circumstances, when Flopson and Millers had got
the children into the house, like a little flock of sheep, and Mr
Pocket came out of it to make my acquaintance, I was not much
surprised to find that Mr Pocket was a gentleman with a rather
perplexed expression of face, and with his very grey hair disordered
on his head, as if he didn't quite see his way to putting anything
straight.
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