DR. SEWARD'S PHONOGRAPH DIARY
SPOKEN BY VAN HELSING
This to Jonathan Harker.
You are to stay with your dear Madam Mina. We shall go
to make our search, if I can call it so, for it is not search
but knowing, and we seek confirmation only. But do you stay
and take care of her today. This is your best and most holiest office. This day nothing can find him here.
Let me tell you that so you will know what we four know
already, for I have tell them. He, our enemy, have gone away.
He have gone back to his Castle in Transylvania. I know it so
well, as if a great hand of fire wrote it on the wall. He
have prepare for this in some way, and that last earth box
was ready to ship somewheres. For this he took the money. For
this he hurry at the last, lest we catch him before the sun
go down. It was his last hope, save that he might hide in the
tomb that he think poor Miss Lucy, being as he thought like
him, keep open to him. But there was not of time. When that
fail he make straight for his last resource, his last earthwork I might say did I wish double entente. He is clever, oh
so clever! He know that his game here was finish. And so he
decide he go back home. He find ship going by the route he
came, and he go in it.
We go off now to find what ship, and whither bound.
When we have discover that, we come back and tell you all.
Then we will comfort you and poor Madam Mina with new hope.
For it will be hope when you think it over, that all is not
lost. This very creature that we pursue, he take hundreds
of years to get so far as London. And yet in one day, when
we know of the disposal of him we drive him out. He is
finite, though he is powerful to do much harm and suffers
not as we do. But we are strong, each in our purpose, and
we are all more strong together. Take heart afresh, dear
husband of Madam Mina. This battle is but begun and in the
end we shall win. So sure as that God sits on high to watch
over His children. Therefore be of much comfort till we
return.
VAN HELSING.
JONATHAN HARKER'S JOURNAL
4 October.--When I read to Mina, Van Helsing's message
in the phonograph, the poor girl brightened up considerably.
Already the certainty that the Count is out of the country
has given her comfort. And comfort is strength to her. For
my own part, now that his horrible danger is not face to face
with us, it seems almost impossible to believe in it. Even my
own terrible experiences in Castle Dracula seem like a long
forgotten dream. Here in the crisp autumn air in the bright
sunlight.
Alas! How can I disbelieve! In the midst of my thought
my eye fell on the red scar on my poor darling's white forehead. Whilst that lasts, there can be no disbelief. Mina
and I fear to be idle, so we have been over all the diaries
again and again. Somehow, although the reality seem greater
each time, the pain and the fear seem less. There is something of a guiding purpose manifest throughout, which is
comforting. Mina says that perhaps we are the instruments
of ultimate good. It may be! I shall try to think as she
does. We have never spoken to each other yet of the future.
It is better to wait till we see the Professor and the
others after their investigations.
The day is running by more quickly than I ever thought
a day could run for me again. It is now three o'clock.
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
5 October, 5 p. m.--Our meeting for report. Present:
Professor Van Helsing, Lord Godalming, Dr. Seward, Mr. Quincey
Morris, Jonathan Harker, Mina Harker.
Dr. Van Helsing described what steps were taken during
the day to discover on what boat and whither bound Count
Dracula made his escape.
"As I knew that he wanted to get back to Transylvania,
I felt sure that he must go by the Danube mouth, or by somewhere in the Black Sea, since by that way he come. It was a
dreary blank that was before us. Omme Ignotum pro magnifico.
And so with heavy hearts we start to find what ships leave
for the Black Sea last night. He was in sailing ship, since
Madam Mina tell of sails being set. These not so important
as to go in your list of the shipping in the Times, and so we
go, by suggestion of Lord Godalming, to your Lloyd's, where
are note of all ships that sail, however so small. There we
find that only one Black Sea bound ship go out with the tide.
She is the Czarina Catherine, and she sail from Doolittle's
Wharf for Varna, and thence to other ports and up the Danube.
`So!' said I, `this is the ship whereon is the Count.' So
off we go to Doolittle's Wharf, and there we find a man in an
office. From him we inquire o f the goings of the Czarina
Catherine. He swear much, and he red face and loud of voice,
but he good fellow all the same. And when Quincey give him
something from his pocket which crackle as he roll it up, and
put it in a so small bag which he have hid deep in his clothing, he still better fellow and humble servant to us. He come
with us, and ask many men who are rough and hot. These be
better fellows too when they have been no more thirsty. They
say much of blood and bloom, and of others which I comprehend
not, though I guess what they mean. But nevertheless they
tell us all things which we want to know.
"They make known to us among them, how last afternoon
at about five o'clock comes a man so hurry. A tall man, thin
and pale, with high nose and teeth so white, and eyes that
seem to be burning. That he be all in black, except that he
have a hat of straw which suit not him or the time. That he
scatter his money in making quick inquiry as to what ship
sails for the Black Sea and for where. Some took him to the
office and then to the ship, where he will not go aboard but
halt at shore end of gangplank, and ask that the captain come
to him. The captain come, when told that he will be pay well,
and though he swear much at the first he agree to term. Then
the thin man go and some one tell him where horse and cart
can be hired. He go there and soon he come again, himself
driving cart on which a great box. This he himself lift down,
though it take several to put it on truck for the ship. He
give much talk to captain as to how and where his box is to
be place. But the captain like it not and swear at him in
many tongues, and tell him that if he like he can come and
see where it shall be. But he say `no,' that he come not yet,
for that he have much to do. Whereupon the captain tell him
that he had better be quick, with blood, for that his ship
will leave the place, of blood, before the turn of the tide,
with blood. Then the thin man smile and say that of course
he must go when he think fit, but he will be surprise if he
go quite so soon. The captain swear again, polyglot, and
the thin man make him bow, and thank him, and say that he
will so far intrude on his kindness as to come aboard before
the sailing. Final the captain, more red than ever, and in
more tongues, tell him that he doesn't want no Frenchmen,
with bloom upon them and also with blood, in his ship, with
blood on her also. And so, after asking where he might purchase ship forms, he departed.
"No one knew where he went `or bloomin' well cared' as
they said, for they had something else to think of, well with
blood again. For it soon became apparent to all that the
Czarina Catherine would not sail as was expected. A thin mist
began to creep up from the river, and it grew, and grew. Till
soon a dense fog enveloped the ship and all around her. The
captain swore polyglot, very polyglot, polyglot with bloom
and blood, but he could do nothing. The water rose and rose,
and he began to fear that he would lose the tide altogether.
He was in no friendly mood, when just at full tide, the thin
man came up the gangplank again and asked to see where his
box had been stowed. Then the captain replied that he wished
that he and his box, old and with much bloom and blood, were
in hell. But the thin man did not be offend, and went down
with the mate and saw where it was place, and came up and
stood awhile on deck in fog. He must have come off by himself,
for none notice him. Indeed they thought not of him, for soon
the fog begin to melt away, and all was clear again. My
friends of the thirst and the language that was of bloom and
blood laughed, as they told how the captain's swears exceeded
even his usual polyglot, and was more than ever full of picturesque, when on questioning other mariners who were on
movement up and down the river that hour, he found that few
of them had seen any of fog at all, except where it lay round
the wharf. However, the ship went out on the ebb tide, and
was doubtless by morning far down the river mouth. She was
then, when they told us, well out to sea.
"And so, my dear Madam Mina, it is that we have to rest
for a time, for our enemy is on the sea, with the fog at his
command, on his way to the Danube mouth. To sail a ship takes
time, go she never so quick. And when we start to go on land
more quick, and we meet him there. Our best hope is to come
on him when in the box between sunrise and sunset. For then
he can make no struggle, and we may deal with him as we
should. There are days for us, in which we can make ready our
plan. We know all about where he go. For we have seen the
owner of the ship, who have shown us invoices and all papers
that can be. The box we seek is to be landed in Varna, and
to be given to an agent, one Ristics who will there present
his credentials. And so our merchant friend will have done
his part. When he ask if there be any wrong, for that so, he
can telegraph and have inquiry made at Varna, we say `no,'
for what is to be done is not for police or of the customs.
It must be done by us alone and in our own way."
When Dr. Van Helsing had done speaking, I asked him if
he were certain that the Count had remained on board the
ship. He replied, "We have the best proof of that, your own
evidence, when in the hypnotic trance this morning."
I asked him again if it were really necessary that they
should pursue the Count, for oh! I dread Jonathan leaving me,
and I know that he would surely go if the others went. He
answered in growing passion, at first quietly. As he went on,
however, he grew more angry and more forceful, till in the
end we could not but see wherein was at least some of that
personal dominance which made him so long a master amongst
men.
"Yes, it is necessary, necessary, necessary! For your
sake in the first, and then for the sake of humanity. This
monster has done much harm already, in the narrow scope
where he find himself, and in the short time when as yet he
was only as a body groping his so small measure in darkness
and not knowing. All this have I told these others. You, my
dear Madam Mina, will learn it in the phonograph of my friend
John, or in that of your husband. I have told them how the
measure of leaving his own barren land, barren of peoples,and
coming to a new land where life of man teems till they are
like the multitude of standing corn, was the work of centuries. Were another of the Undead, like him, to try to do
what he has done, perhaps not all the centuries of the world
that have been, or that will be, could aid him. With this one,
all the forces of nature that are occult and deep and strong
must have worked together in some wonderous way. The very
place, where he have been alive, Undead for all these centuries, is full of strangeness of the geologic and chemical
world. There are deep caverns and fissures that reach none
know whither. There have been volcanoes, some of whose openings still send out waters of strange properties, and gases
that kill or make to vivify. Doubtless, there is something
magnetic or electric in some of these combinations of occult
forces which work for physical life in strange way, and in
himself were from the first some great qualities. In a hard
and warlike time he was celebrate that he have more iron
nerve, more subtle brain, more braver heart, than any man. In
him some vital principle have in strange way found their utmost. And as his body keep strong and grow and thrive, so
his brain grow too. All this without that diabolic aid which
is surely to him. For it have to yield to the powers that
come from, and are, symbolic of good. And now this is what
he is to us. He have infect you, oh forgive me, my dear, that
I must say such, but it is for good of you that I speak. He
infect you in such wise, that even if he do no more, you have
only to live, to live in your own old, sweet way, and so in
time, death, which is of man's common lot and with God's sanction, shall make you like to him. This must not be! We have
sworn together that it must not. Thus are we ministers of
God's own wish. That the world, and men for whom His Son die,
will not be given over to monsters, whose very existence
would defame Him. He have allowed us to redeem one soul already, and we go out as the old knights of the Cross to redeem more. Like them we shall travel towards the sunrise.
And like them, if we fall, we fall in good cause."
He paused and I said, "But will not the Count take his
rebuff wisely? Since he has been driven from England, will
he not avoid it, as a tiger does the village from which he
has been hunted?"
"Aha!" he said, "your simile of the tiger good, for me,
and I shall adopt him. Your maneater, as they of India call
the tiger who has once tasted blood of the human, care no
more for the other prey, but prowl unceasing till he get him.
This that we hunt from our village is a tiger, too, a maneater, and he never cease to prowl. Nay, in himself he is not
one to retire and stay afar. In his life, his living life, he
go over the Turkey frontier and attack his enemy on his own
ground. He be beaten back, but did he stay? No! He come
again, and again, and again. Look at his persistence and endurance. With the child-brain that was to him he have long
since conceive the idea of coming to a great city. What does
he do? He find out the place of all the world most of promise for him. Then he deliberately set himself down to
prepare for the task. He find in patience just how is his
strength, and what are his powers. He study new tongues. He
learn new social life, new environment of old ways, the politics, the law, the finance, the science, the habit of a new
land and a new people who have come to be since he was. His
glimpse that he have had, whet his appetite only and enkeen
his desire. Nay, it help him to grow as to his brain. For it
all prove to him how right he was at the first in his surmises. He have done this alone, all alone! From a ruin tomb
in a forgotten land. What more may he not do when the greater
world of thought is open to him. He that can smile at death,
as we know him. Who can flourish in the midst of diseases
that kill off whole peoples. Oh! If such an one was to come
from God, and not the Devil, what a force for good might he
not be in this old world of ours. But we are pledged to set
the world free. Our toil must be in silence, and our efforts
all in secret. For in this enlightened age, when men believe
not even what they see, the doubting of wise men would be his
greatest strength. It would be at once his sheath and his
armor, and his weapons to destroy us, his enemies, who are
willing to peril even our own souls for the safety of one we
love. For the good of mankind, and for the honor and glory of
God."
After a general discussion it was determined that for
tonight nothing be definitely settled. That we should all
sleep on the facts, and try to think out the proper conclusions. Tomorrow, at breakfast, we are to meet again, and
after making our conclusions known to one another, we shall
decide on some definite cause of action . . .
I feel a wonderful peace and rest tonight. It is as if
some haunting presence were removed from me. Perhaps . . .
My surmise was not finished, could not be, for I caught
sight in the mirror of the red mark upon my forehead, and I
knew that I was still unclean.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
5 October.--We all arose early, and I think that sleep
did much for each and all of us. When we met at early breakfast there was more general cheerfulness than any of us had
ever expected to experience again.
It is really wonderful how much resilience there is in
human nature. Let any obstructing cause, no matter what, be
removed in any way, even by death, and we fly back to first
principles of hope and enjoyment. More than once as we sat
around the table, my eyes opened in wonder whether the whole
of the past days had not been a dream. It was only when I
caught sight of the red blotch on Mrs. Harker's forehead that
I was brought back to reality. Even now, when I am gravely
revolving the matter, it is almost impossible to realize that
the cause of all our trouble is still existent. Even Mrs.
Harker seems to lose sight of her trouble for whole spells.
It is only now and again, when something recalls it to her
mind, that she thinks of her terrible scar. We are to meet
here in my study in half an hour and decide on our course of
action. I see only one immediate difficulty, I know it by
instinct rather than reason. We shall all have to speak
frankly. And yet I fear that in some mysterious way poor Mrs.
Harker's tongue is tied. I know that she forms conclusions
of her own, and from all that has been I can guess how brilliant and how true they must be. But she will not, or cannot,
give them utterance. I have mentioned this to Van Helsing,
and he and I are to talk it over when we are alone. I suppose
it is some of that horrid poison which has got into her
veins beginning to work. The Count had his own purposes when
he gave her what Van Helsing called "the Vampire's baptism
of blood." Well, there may be a poison that distills itself
out of good things. In an age when the existence of ptomaines
is a mystery we should not wonder at anything! One thing I
know, that if my instinct be true regarding poor Mrs. Harker's
silences, then there is a terrible difficulty, an unknown
danger, in the work before us. The same power that compels
her silence may compel her speech. I dare not think further,
for so I should in my thoughts dishonor a noble woman!
Later.--When the Professor came in, we talked over the
state of things. I could see that he had something on his
mind, which he wanted to say, but felt some hesitancy about
broaching the subject. After beating about the bush a little,
he said,"Friend John, there is something that you and I must
talk of alone, just at the first at any rate. Later, we may
have to take the others into our confidence."
Then he stopped, so I waited. He went on, "Madam Mina,
our poor, dear Madam Mina is changing."
A cold shiver ran through me to find my worst fears
thus endorsed. Van Helsing continued.
"With the sad experience of Miss Lucy, we must this
time be warned before things go too far. Our task is now in
reality more difficult than ever, and this new trouble makes
every hour of the direst importance. I can see the characteristics of the vampire coming in her face. It is now but
very, very slight. But it is to be seen if we have eyes to
notice without prejudge. Her teeth are sharper, and at times
her eyes are more hard. But these are not all, there is to
her the silence now often, as so it was with Miss Lucy. She
did not speak, even when she wrote that which she wished to
be known later. Now my fear is this. If it be that she can,
by our hypnotic trance, tell what the Count see and hear, is
it not more true that he who have hypnotize her first, and
who have drink of her very blood and make her drink of his,
should if he will, compel her mind to disclose to him that
which she know?"
I nodded acquiescence. He went on, "Then, what we must
do is to prevent this. We must keep her ignorant of our intent, and so she cannot tell what she know not. This is a
painful task! Oh, so painful that it heartbreak me to think
of it, but it must be. When today we meet, I must tell her
that for reason which we will not to speak she must not more
be of our council, but be simply guarded by us."
He wiped his forehead, which had broken out in profuse
perspiration at the thought of the pain which he might have
to inflict upon the poor soul already so tortured. I knew
that it would be some sort of comfort to him if I told him
that I also had come to the same conclusion. For at any
rate it would take away the pain of doubt. I told him, and
the effect was as I expected.
It is now close to the time of our general gathering.
Van Helsing has gone away to prepare for the meeting, and
his painful part of it. I really believe his purpose is to
be able to pray alone.
Later.--At the very outset of our meeting a great personal relief was experienced by both Van Helsing and myself.
Mrs. Harker had sent a message by her husband to say that
she would not join us at present, as she thought it better
that we should be free to discuss our movements without her
presence to embarrass us. The Professor and I looked at
each other for an instant, and somehow we both seemed
relieved. For my own part, I thought that if Mrs. Harker
realized the danger herself, it was much pain as well as
much danger averted. Under the circumstances we agreed, by
a questioning look and answer, with finger on lip, to preserve silence in our suspicions, until we should have been
able to confer alone again. We went at once into our Plan
of Campaign.
Van Helsing roughly put the facts before us first,"The
Czarina Catherine left the Thames yesterday morning. It will
take her at the quickest speed she has ever made at least
three weeks to reach Varna. But we can travel overland to
the same place in three days. Now, if we allow for two days
less for the ship's voyage, owing to such weather influences
as we know that the Count can bring to bear, and if we allow
a whole day and night for any delays which may occur to us,
then we have a margin of nearly two weeks.
"Thus, in order to be quite safe, we must leave here on
17th at latest. Then we shall at any rate be in Varna a day
before the ship arrives, and able to make such preparations
as may be necessary. Of course we shall all go armed, armed
against evil things, spiritual as well as physical."
Here Quincey Morris added,"I understand that the Count
comes from a wolf country, and it may be that he shall get
there before us. I propose that we add Winchesters to our
armament. I have a kind of belief in a Winchester when
there is any trouble of that sort around. Do you remember,
Art, when we had the pack after us at Tobolsk?What wouldn't
we have given then for a repeater apiece!"
"Good!" said Van Helsing, "Winchesters it shall be.
Quincey's head is level at times, but most so when there is
to hunt, metaphor be more dishonor to science than wolves be
of danger to man. In the meantime we can do nothing here.
And as I think that Varna is not familiar to any of us, why
not go there more soon? It is as long to wait here as there.
Tonight and tomorrow we can get ready, and then if all be
well, we four can set out on our journey."
"We four?" said Harker interrogatively, looking from
one to another of us.
"Of course!" answered the Professor quickly. "You must
remain to take care of your so sweet wife!"
Harker was silent for awhile and then said in a hollow
voice, "Let us talk of that part of it in the morning. I
want to consult with Mina."
I thought that now was the time for Van Helsing to
warn him not to disclose our plan to her, but he took no
notice. I looked at him significantly and coughed.For answer
he put his finger to his lips and turned away.
JONATHAN HARKER'S JOURNAL
October, afternoon.--For some time after our meeting
this morning I could not think. The new phases of things
leave my mind in a state of wonder which allows no room for
active thought. Mina's determination not to take any part
in the discussion set me thinking. And as I could not argue
the matter with her, I could only guess. I am as far as
ever from a solution now. The way the others received it,
too puzzled me. The last time we talked of the subject we
agreed that there was to be no more concealment of anything
amongst us. Mina is sleeping now, calmly and sweetly like a
little child. Her lips are curved and her face beams with
happiness. Thank God, there are such moments still for her.
Later.--How strange it all is. I sat watching Mina's
happy sleep, and I came as near to being happy myself as I
suppose I shall ever be. As the evening drew on, and the
earth took its shadows from the sun sinking lower, the silence of the room grew more and more solemn to me.
All at once Mina opened her eyes, and looking at me
tenderly said, "Jonathan, I want you to promise me something
on your word of honor. A promise made to me, but made holily
in God's hearing, and not to be broken though I should go
down on my knees and implore you with bitter tears. Quick,
you must make it to me at once."
"Mina," I said, "a promise like that, I cannot make at
once. I may have no right to make it."
"But, dear one," she said, with such spiritual intensity that her eyes were like pole stars, "it is I who wish
it. And it is not for myself. You can ask Dr. Van Helsing
if I am not right. If he disagrees you may do as you will.
Nay, more if you all agree, later you are absolved from the
promise."
"I promise!"I said, and for a moment she looked supremely happy. Though to me all happiness for her was denied by
the red scar on her forehead.
She said, "Promise me that you will not tell me anything of the plans formed for the campaign against the Count.
Not by word, or inference, or implication, not at any time
whilst this remains to me!" And she solemnly pointed to the
scar. I saw that she was in earnest, and said solemnly, "I
promise!" and as I said it I felt that from that instant a
door had been shut between us.
Later, midnight.--Mina has been bright and cheerful all
the evening. So much so that all the rest seemed to take
courage, as if infected somewhat with her gaiety. As a result even I myself felt as if the pall of gloom which weighs
us down were somewhat lifted. We all retired early. Mina
is now sleeping like a little child. It is wonderful thing
that her faculty of sleep remains to her in the midst of her
terrible trouble. Thank God for it, for then at least she
can forget her care. Perhaps her example may affect me as
her gaiety did tonight. I shall try it. Oh! For a dreamless sleep.
6 October, morning.--Another surprise. Mina woke me
early, about the same time as yesterday, and asked me to
bring Dr. Van Helsing. I thought that it was another occassion for hypnotism, and without question went for the Professor. He had evidently expected some such call, for I
found him dressed in his room. His door was ajar, so that
he could hear the opening of the door of our room. He came
at once. As he passed into the room, he asked Mina if the
others might come, too.
"No," she said quite simply, "it will not be necessary.
You can tell them just as well. I must go with you on your
journey."
Dr. Van Helsing was as startled as I was. After a moment's pause he asked, "But why?"
"You must take me with you. I am safer with you, and
you shall be safer, too."
"But why, dear Madam Mina? You know that your safety
is our solemnest duty. We go into danger, to which you are,
or may be, more liable than any of us from . . . from circumstances . . . things that have been." He paused embarrassed.
As she replied, she raised her finger and pointed to
her forehead. "I know. That is why I must go. I can tell
you now, whilst the sun is coming up. I may not be able
again. I know that when the Count wills me I must go. I
know that if he tells me to come in secret, I must by wile.
By any device to hoodwink, even Jonathan." God saw the look
that she turned on me as she spoke, and if there be indeed a
Recording Angel that look is noted to her ever-lasting honor.
I could only clasp her hand. I could not speak. My emotion
was too great for even the relief of tears.
She went on. "You men are brave and strong. You are
strong in your numbers, for you can defy that which would
break down the human endurance of one who had to guard alone.
Besides, I may be of service, since you can hypnotize me and
so learn that which even I myself do not know."
Dr. Van Helsing said gravely, "Madam Mina, you are, as
always, most wise. You shall with us come. And together we
shall do that which we go forth to achieve."
When he had spoken, Mina's long spell of silence made
me look at her. She had fallen back on her pillow asleep.
She did not even wake when I had pulled up the blind and let
in the sunlight which flooded the room. Van Helsing motioned
to me to come with him quietly. We went to his room, and
within a minute Lord Godalming, Dr. Seward, and Mr. Morris
were with us also.
He told them what Mina had said, and went on. "In the
morning we shall leave for Varna. We have now to deal with
a new factor, Madam Mina. Oh, but her soul is true. It is
to her an agony to tell us so much as she has done. But it
is most right, and we are warned in time. There must be no
chance lost, and in Varna we must be ready to act the instant when that ship arrives."
"What shall we do exactly?"asked Mr. Morris laconically.
The Professor paused before replying, "We shall at the
first board that ship. Then, when we have identified the
box, we shall place a branch of the wild rose on it. This
we shall fasten, for when it is there none can emerge, so
that at least says the superstition. And to superstition
must we trust at the first. It was man's faith in the early,
and it have its root in faith still. Then, when we get the
opportunity that we seek, when none are near to see, we shall
open the box, and . . . and all will be well."
"I shall not wait for any opportunity," said Morris.
"When I see the box I shall open it and destroy the monster,
though there were a thousand men looking on, and if I am to
be wiped out for it the next moment!" I grasped his hand instinctively and found it as firm as a piece of steel. I think
he understood my look. I hope he did.
"Good boy," said Dr. Van Helsing. "Brave boy. Quincey
is all man. God bless him for it. My child, believe me none
of us shall lag behind or pause from any fear. I do but say
what we may do . . . what we must do. But, indeed, indeed we
cannot say what we may do. There are so many things which may
happen, and their ways and their ends are so various that
until the moment we may not say. We shall all be armed, in
all ways. And when the time for the end has come, our effort
shall not be lack. Now let us today put all our affairs in
order. Let all things which touch on others dear to us, and
who on us depend, be complete. For none of us can tell what,
or when, or how, the end may be. As for me, my own affairs
are regulate, and as I have nothing else to do, I shall go
make arrangements for the travel. I shall have all tickets
and so forth for our journey."
There was nothing further to be said, and we parted. I
shall now settle up all my affairs of earth, and be ready for
whatever may come.
Later.--It is done. My will is made, and all complete.
Mina if she survive is my sole heir. If it should not be
so, then the others who have been so good to us shall have
remainder.
It is now drawing towards the sunset. Mina's uneasiness calls my attention to it. I am sure that there is
something on her mind which the time of exact sunset will
reveal. These occasions are becoming harrowing times for us
all. For each sunrise and sunset opens up some new danger,
some new pain, which however, may in God's will be means to
a good end. I write all these things in the diary since my
darling must not hear them now. But if it may be that she
can see them again, they shall be ready. She is calling to me.