DR. SEWARD'S DIARY-cont
When we arrived at the Berkely Hotel, Van Helsing found
a telegram waiting for him.
"Am coming up by train. Jonathan at Whitby. Important
news. Mina Harker."
The Professor was delighted. "Ah, that wonderful Madam
Mina," he said, "pearl among women! She arrive, but I cannot stay. She must go to your house, friend John. You must
meet her at the station. Telegraph her en route so that she
may be prepared."
When the wire was dispatched he had a cup of tea. Over
it he told me of a diary kept by Jonathan Harker when abroad,
and gave me a typewritten copy of it, as also of Mrs. Harker's
diary at Whitby. "Take these," he said,"and study them well.
When I have returned you will be master of all the facts,
and we can then better enter on our inquisition. Keep them
safe, for there is in them much of treasure. You will need
all your faith, even you who have had such an experience as
that of today. What is here told," he laid his hand heavily
and gravely on the packet of papers as he spoke, "may be the
beginning of the end to you and me and many another, or it
may sound the knell of the Un-Dead who walk the earth. Read
all, I pray you, with the open mind, and if you can add in
any way to the story here told do so, for it is all important. You have kept a diary of all these so strange things,
is it not so? Yes! Then we shall go through all these together when we meet." He then made ready for his departure
and shortly drove off to Liverpool Street. I took my way to
Paddington, where I arrived about fifteen minutes before the
train came in.
The crowd melted away, after the bustling fashion common to arrival platforms, and I was beginning to feel uneasy,
lest I might miss my guest, when a sweet-faced, dainty looking girl stepped up to me, and after a quick glance said,
"Dr. Seward, is it not?"
"And you are Mrs. Harker!" I answered at once, whereupon she held out her hand.
"I knew you from the description of poor dear Lucy,
but. . ." She stopped suddenly, and a quick blush overspread
her face.
The blush that rose to my own cheeks somehow set us
both at ease, for it was a tacit answer to her own. I got her
luggage, which included a typewriter, and we took the Underground to Fenchurch Street, after I had sent a wire to my
housekeeper to have a sitting room and a bedroom prepared at
once for Mrs. Harker.
In due time we arrived. She knew, of course, that the
place was a lunatic asylum, but I could see that she was unable to repress a shudder when we entered.
She told me that, if she might, she would come presently
to my study, as she had much to say. So here I am finishing
my entry in my phonograph diary whilst I await her. As yet
I have not had the chance of looking at the papers which Van
Helsing left with me, though they lie open before me. I must
get her interested in something, so that I may have an opportunity of reading them. She does not know how precious
time is, or what a task we have in hand. I must be careful
not to frighten her. Here she is!
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
29 September.--After I had tidied myself, I went down
to Dr. Seward's study. At the door I paused a moment, for I
thought I heard him talking with some one. As, however, he
had pressed me to be quick, I knocked at the door, and on his
calling out, "Come in," I entered.
To my intense surprise, there was no one with him. He
was quite alone, and on the table opposite him was what I
knew at once from the description to be a phonograph. I had
never seen one, and was much interested.
"I hope I did not keep you waiting," I said, "but I
stayed at the door as I heard you talking, and thought there
was someone with you."
"Oh," he replied with a smile, "I was only entering my
diary."
"Your diary?" I asked him in surprise.
"Yes," he answered. "I keep it in this." As he spoke
he laid his hand on the phonograph. I felt quite excited
over it, and blurted out, "Why, this beats even shorthand!
May I hear it say something?"
"Certainly," he replied with alacrity, and stood up to
put it in train for speaking. Then he paused, and a troubled look overspread his face.
"The fact is," he began awkwardly."I only keep my diary
in it, and as it is entirely, almost entirely, about my cases
it may be awkward, that is, I mean . . ." He stopped, and I
tried to help him out of his embarrassment.
"You helped to attend dear Lucy at the end. Let me hear
how she died, for all that I know of her, I shall be very
grateful. She was very, very dear to me."
To my surprise, he answered, with a horrorstruck look in
his face, "Tell you of her death? Not for the wide world!"
"Why not?" I asked, for some grave, terrible feeling
was coming over me.
Again he paused, and I could see that he was trying to
invent an excuse. At length, he stammered out, "You see, I
do not know how to pick out any particular part of the
diary."
Even while he was speaking an idea dawned upon him, and
he said with unconscious simplicity, in a different voice,
and with the naivete of a child, "that's quite true, upon my
honor. Honest Indian!"
I could not but smile, at which he grimaced."I gave myself away that time!" he said. "But do you know that, although I have kept the diary for months past, it never once
struck me how I was going to find any particular part of it
in case I wanted to look it up?"
By this time my mind was made up that the diary of a
doctor who attended Lucy might have something to add to the
sum of our knowledge of that terrible Being, and I said
boldly, "Then, Dr. Seward, you had better let me copy it out
for you on my typewriter."
He grew to a positively deathly pallor as he said, "No!
No! No! For all the world. I wouldn't let you know that
terrible story.!"
Then it was terrible. My intuition was right! For a moment, I thought, and as my eyes ranged the room, unconsciously looking for something or some opportunity to aid me, they
lit on a great batch of typewriting on the table. His eyes
caught the look in mine, and without his thinking, followed
their direction. As they saw the parcel he realized my meaning.
"You do not know me," I said. "When you have read those
papers, my own diary and my husband's also, which I have
typed, you will know me better. I have not faltered in giving every thought of my own heart in this cause. But, of
course, you do not know me, yet, and I must not expect you
to trust me so far."
He is certainly a man of noble nature. Poor dear Lucy
was right about him. He stood up and opened a large drawer,
in which were arranged in order a number of hollow cylinders
of metal covered with dark wax, and said,
"You are quite right. I did not trust you because I did
not know you. But I know you now, and let me say that I
should have known you long ago. I know that Lucy told you of
me. She told me of you too. May I make the only atonement
in my power? Take the cylinders and hear them. The first
half-dozen of them are personal to me, and they will not
horrify you. Then you will know me better. Dinner will by
then be ready. In the meantime I shall read over some of
these documents, and shall be better able to understand certain things."
He carried the phonograph himself up to my sitting room
and adjusted it for me. Now I shall learn something pleasant,
I am sure. For it will tell me the other side of a true love
episode of which I know one side already.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
29 September.--I was so absorbed in that wonderful
diary of Jonathan Harker and that other of his wife that I
let the time run on without thinking. Mrs. Harker was not
down when the maid came to announce dinner, so I said, "She
is possibly tired. Let dinner wait an hour," and I went on
with my work. I had just finished Mrs. Harker's diary, when
she came in. She looked sweetly pretty, but very sad, and
her eyes were flushed with crying. This somehow moved me
much. Of late I have had cause for tears, God knows! But
the relief of them was denied me, and now the sight of those
sweet eyes, brightened by recent tears, went straight to my
heart. So I said as gently as I could, "I greatly fear I
have distressed you."
"Oh, no, not distressed me," she replied. "But I have
been more touched than I can say by your grief. That is a
wonderful machine, but it is cruelly true. It told me, in
its very tones, the anguish of your heart. It was like a soul
crying out to Almighty God. No one must hear them spoken
ever again! See, I have tried to be useful. I have copied
out the words on my typewriter, and none other need now hear
your heart beat, as I did."
"No one need ever know, shall ever know," I said in a
low voice. She laid her hand on mine and said very gravely,
"Ah, but they must!"
"Must! but why?" I asked.
"Because it is a part of the terrible story, a part of
poor Lucy's death and all that led to it. Because in the
struggle which we have before us to rid the earth of this
terrible monster we must have all the knowledge and all the
help which we can get. I think that the cylinders which you
gave me contained more than you intended me to know. But I
can see that there are in your record many lights to this
dark mystery. You will let me help, will you not? I know all
up to a certain point, and I see already, though your diary
only took me to 7 September, how poor Lucy was beset, and
how her terrible doom was being wrought out. Jonathan and I
have been working day and night since Professor Van Helsing
saw us. He is gone to Whitby to get more information, and
he will be here tomorrow to help us. We need have no secrets
amongst us. Working together and with absolute trust, we
can surely be stronger than if some of us were in the dark."
She looked at me so appealingly, and at the same time
manifested such courage and resolution in her bearing, that
I gave in at once to her wishes. "You shall," I said, "do as
you like in the matter. God forgive me if I do wrong! There
are terrible things yet to learn of. But if you have so far
traveled on the road to poor Lucy's death, you will not be
content, I know, to remain in the dark. Nay, the end, the
very end, may give you a gleam of peace. Come, there is
dinner. We must keep one another strong for what is before
us. We have a cruel and dreadful task. When you have eaten
you shall learn the rest, and I shall answer any questions
you ask, if there be anything which you do not understand,
though it was apparent to us who were present."
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
29 September.--After dinner I came with Dr. Seward to
his study. He brought back the phonograph from my room, and
I took a chair, and arranged the phonograph so that I could
touch it without getting up, and showed me how to stop it in
case I should want to pause. Then he very thoughtfully took
a chair, with his back to me, so that I might be as free as
possible, and began to read. I put the forked metal to my
ears and listened.
When the terrible story of Lucy's death, and all that
followed, was done, I lay back in my chair powerless. Fortunately I am not of a fainting disposition. When Dr. Seward
saw me he jumped up with a horrified exclamation, and hurriedly taking a case bottle from the cupboard, gave me some
brandy, which in a few minutes somewhat restored me. My
brain was all in a whirl, and only that there came through
all the multitude of horrors, the holy ray of light that my
dear Lucy was at last at peace, I do not think I could have
borne it without making a scene. It is all so wild and mysterious, and strange that if I had not known Jonathan's experience in Transylvania I could not have believed. As it
was, I didn't know what to believe, and so got out of my
difficulty by attending to something else. I took the cover
off my typewriter, and said to Dr. Seward,
"Let me write this all out now. We must be ready for
Dr. Van Helsing when he comes. I have sent a telegram to
Jonathan to come on here when he arrives in London from
Whitby. In this matter dates are everything, and I think
that if we get all of our material ready, and have every item
put in chronological order, we shall have done much.
"You tell me that Lord Godalming and Mr. Morris are
coming too. Let us be able to tell them when they come."
He accordingly set the phonograph at a slow pace, and I
began to typewrite from the beginning of the seventeenth cylinder. I used manifold, and so took three copies of the
diary, just as I had done with the rest. It was late when I
got through, but Dr. Seward went about his work of going his
round of the patients. When he had finished he came back and
sat near me, reading, so that I did not feel too lonely
whilst I worked. How good and thoughtful he is. The world
seems full of good men, even if there are monsters in it.
Before I left him I remembered what Jonathan put in his
diary of the Professor's perturbation at reading something
in an evening paper at the station at Exeter, so, seeing
that Dr. Seward keeps his newspapers, I borrowed the files
of `The Westminster Gazette' and `The Pall Mall Gazette' and
took them to my room. I remember how much the `Dailygraph'
and `The Whitby Gazette', of which I had made cuttings, had
helped us to understand the terrible events at Whitby when
Count Dracula landed, so I shall look through the evening
papers since then, and perhaps I shall get some new light. I
am not sleepy, and the work will help to keep me quiet.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
30 September.--Mr. Harker arrived at nine o'clock. He
got his wife's wire just before starting. He is uncommonly
clever, if one can judge from his face, and full of energy.
If this journal be true, and judging by one's own wonderful
experiences, it must be, he is also a man of great nerve.
That going down to the vault a second time was a remarkable
piece of daring. After reading his account of it I was prepared to meet a good specimen of manhood, but hardly the
quiet, business-like gentleman who came here today.
LATER.--After lunch Harker and his wife went back to
their own room, and as I passed a while ago I heard the click
of the typewriter. They are hard at it. Mrs. Harker says
that knitting together in chronological order every scrap of
evidence they have. Harker has got the letters between the
consignee of the boxes at Whitby and the carriers in London
who took charge of them. He is now reading his wife's transcript of my diary. I wonder what they make out of it. Here
it is . . .
Strange that it never struck me that the very next
house might be the Count's hiding place! Goodness knows that
we had enough clues from the conduct of the patient Renfield!
The bundle of letters relating to the purchase of the house
were with the transcript. Oh, if we had only had them earlier we might have saved poor Lucy! Stop! That way madness
lies! Harker has gone back, and is again collecting material.
He says that by dinner time they will be able to show a
whole connected narrative. He thinks that in the meantime I
should see Renfield, as hitherto he has been a sort of index
to the coming and going of the Count. I hardly see this yet,
but when I get at the dates I suppose I shall. What a good
thing that Mrs. Harker put my cylinders into type! We never
could have found the dates otherwise.
I found Renfield sitting placidly in his room with his
hands folded, smiling benignly. At the moment he seemed as
sane as any one I ever saw. I sat down and talked with him
on a lot of subjects, all of which he treated naturally. He
then, of his own accord, spoke of going home, a subject he
has never mentioned to my knowledge during his sojourn here.
In fact, he spoke quite confidently of getting his discharge
at once. I believe that, had I not had the chat with Harker
and read the letters and the dates of his outbursts, I should
have been prepared to sign for him after a brief time of observation. As it is, I am darkly suspicious. All those outbreaks were in some way linked with the proximity of the
Count. What then does this absolute content mean? Can it be
that his instinct is satisfied as to the vampire's ultimate
triumph? Stay. He is himself zoophagous, and in his wild
ravings outside the chapel door of the deserted house he always spoke of `master'. This all seems confirmation of our
idea. However, after a while I came away. My friend is just
a little too sane at present to make it safe to probe him
too deep with questions. He might begin to think, and
then . . . So I came away. I mistrust these quiet moods of
of his, so I have given the attendant a hint to look closely
after him, and to have a strait waistcoat ready in case of
need.
JOHNATHAN HARKER'S JOURNAL
29 September, in train to London.--When I received Mr.
Billington's courteous message that he would give me any information in his power I thought it best to go down to Whitby and make, on the spot, such inquiries as I wanted. It was
now my object to trace that horrid cargo of the Count's to
its place in London. Later, we may be able to deal with it.
Billington junior, a nice lad, met me at the station, and
brought me to his father's house, where they had decided that
I must spend the night. They are hospitable, with true Yorkshire hospitality, give a guest everything and leave him
to do as he likes. They all knew that I was busy, and that
my stay was short, and Mr. Billington had ready in his office
all the papers concerning the consignment of boxes. It gave
me almost a turn to see again one of the letters which I had
seen on the Count's table before I knew of his diabolical
plans. Everything had been carefully thought out, and done
systematically and with precision. He seemed to have been
prepared for every obstacle which might be placed by accident in the way of his intentions being carried out. To use
and Americanism, he had `taken no chances', and the absolute
accuracy with which his instructions were fulfilled was
simply the logical result of his care. I saw the invoice, and
took note of it.`Fifty cases of common earth, to be used for
experimental purposes'. Also the copy of the letter to Carter Paterson, and their reply. Of both these I got copies.
This was all the information Mr. Billington could give me, so
I went down to the port and saw the coastguards, the Customs
Officers and the harbor master, who kindly put me in communication with the men who had actually received the boxes.
Their tally was exact with the list, and they had nothing to
add to the simple description `fifty cases of common earth',
except that the boxes were `main and mortal heavy', and that
shifting them was dry work. One of them added that it was
hard lines that there wasn't any gentleman `such like as
like yourself, squire', to show some sort of appreciation of
their efforts in a liquid form. Another put in a rider that
the thirst then generated was such that even the time which
had elapsed had not completely allayed it. Needless to add,
I took care before leaving to lift, forever and adequately,
this source of reproach.
30 September.--The station master was good enough to
give me a line to his old companion the station master at
King's Cross, so that when I arrived there in the morning I
was able to ask him about the arrival of the boxes. He, too
put me at once in communication with the proper officials,
and I saw that their tally was correct with the original invoice. The opportunities of acquiring an abnormal thirst had
been here limited. A noble use of them had, however, been
made, and again I was compelled to deal with the result in
ex post facto manner.
From thence I went to Carter Paterson's central office,
where I met with the utmost courtesy. They looked up the
transaction in their day book and letter book, and at once
telephoned to their King's Cross office for more details. By
good fortune, the men who did the teaming were waiting for
work, and the official at once sent them over, sending also
by one of them the way-bill and all the papers connected
with the delivery of the boxes at Carfax. Here again I found
the tally agreeing exactly. The carriers' men were able to
supplement the paucity of the written words with a few more
details. These were, I shortly found, connected almost solely with the dusty nature of the job, and the consequent
thirst engendered in the operators. On my affording an opportunity, through the medium of the currency of the realm,
of the allaying, at a later period, this beneficial evil,
one of the men remarked,
"That `ere `ouse, guv'nor, is the rummiest I ever was
in. Blyme! But it ain't been touched sence a hundred years.
There was dust that thick in the place that you might have
slep' on it without `urtin' of yer bones. An' the place was
that neglected that yer might `ave smelled ole Jerusalem in
it. But the old chapel, that took the cike, that did!Me and
my mate, we thort we wouldn't never git out quick enough.
Lor', I wouldn't take less nor a quid a moment to stay there
arter dark."
Having been in the house, I could well believe him, but
if he knew what I know, he would, I think have raised his
terms.
Of one thing I am now satisfied. That all those boxes
which arrived at Whitby from Varna in the Demeter were safely deposited in the old chapel at Carfax. There should be
fifty of them there, unless any have since been removed, as
from Dr. Seward's diary I fear.
Later.--Mina and I have worked all day, and we have put
all the papers into order.
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
30 September.--I am so glad that I hardly know how to
contain myself. It is, I suppose, the reaction from the
haunting fear which I have had, that this terrible affair and
the reopening of his old wound might act detrimentally on
Jonathan. I saw him leave for Whitby with as brave a face as
could, but I was sick with apprehension. The effort has,
however, done him good. He was never so resolute, never so
strong, never so full of volcanic energy, as at present. It
is just as that dear, good Professor Van Helsing said, he is
true grit, and he improves under strain that would kill a
weaker nature. He came back full of life and hope and determination. We have got everything in order for tonight. I
feel myself quite wild with excitement. I suppose one ought
to pity anything so hunted as the Count. That is just it.
This thing is not human, not even a beast. To read Dr. Seward's account of poor Lucy's death, and what followed, is
enough to dry up the springs of pity in one's heart.
Later.--Lord Godalming and Mr. Morris arrived earlier
than we expected. Dr. Seward was out on business, and had
taken Jonathan with him, so I had to see them. It was to me
a painful meeting, for it brought back all poor dear Lucy's
hopes of only a few months ago. Of course they had heard
Lucy speak of me, and it seemed that Dr. Van Helsing, too,
had been quite `blowing my trumpet', as Mr. Morris expressed
it. Poor fellows, neither of them is aware that I know all
about the proposals they made to Lucy. They did not quite
know what to say or do, as they were ignorant of the amount
of my knowledge. So they had to keep on neutral subjects.
However, I thought the matter over, and came to the conclusion that the best thing I could do would be to post them on
affairs right up to date. I knew from Dr. Seward's diary
that they had been at Lucy's death, her real death, and that
I need not fear to betray any secret before the time. So I
told them, as well as I could, that I had read all the papers
and diaries, and that my husband and I, having typewritten
them, had just finished putting them in order. I gave them
each a copy to read in the library. When Lord Godalming got
his and turned it over, it does make a pretty good pile, he
said, "Did you write all this, Mrs. Harker?"
I nodded, and he went on.
"I don't quite see the drift of it, but you people are
all so good and kind, and have been working so earnestly and
so energetically, that all I can do is to accept your ideas
blindfold and try to help you. I have had one lesson already
in accepting facts that should make a man humble to the last
hour of his life. Besides, I know you loved my Lucy . . ."
Here he turned away and covered his face with his hands.
I could hear the tears in his voice. Mr. Morris, with instinctive delicacy, just laid a hand for a moment on his
shoulder, and then walked quietly out of the room. I suppose
there is something in a woman's nature that makes a man free
to break down before her and express his feelings on the
tender or emotional side without feeling it derogatory to
his manhood. For when Lord Godalming found himself alone
with me he sat down on the sofa and gave way utterly and openly. I sat down beside him and took his hand. I hope he
didn't think it forward of me, and that if her ever thinks
of it afterwards he never will have such a thought. There I
wrong him. I know he never will. He is too true a gentleman. I said to him, for I could see that his heart was breaking, "I loved dear Lucy, and I know what she was to you, and
what you were to her. She and I were like sisters, and now
she is gone, will you not let me be like a sister to you in
your trouble? I know what sorrows you have had, though I
cannot measure the depth of them. If sympathy and pity can
help in your affliction, won't you let me be of some little
service, for Lucy's sake?"
In an instant the poor dear fellow was overwhelmed with
grief. It seemed to me that all that he had of late been
suffering in silence found a vent at once. He grew quite hysterical, and raising his open hands, beat his palms together
in a perfect agony of grief. He stood up and then sat down
again, and the tears rained down his cheeks. I felt an infinite pity for him, and opened my arms unthinkingly. With
a sob he laid his head on my shoulder and cried like a wearied child, whilst he shook with emotion.
We women have something of the mother in us that makes
us rise above smaller matters when the mother spirit is invoked. I felt this big sorrowing man's head resting on me,
as though it were that of a baby that some day may lie on my
bosom, and I stroked his hair as though he were my own child.
I never thought at the time how strange it all was.
After a little bit his sobs ceased, and he raised himself with an apology, though he made no disguise of his emotion. He told me that for days and nights past, weary days
and sleepless nights, he had been unable to speak with any
one, as a man must speak in his time of sorrow. There was no
woman whose sympathy could be given to him, or with whom,
owing to the terrible circumstance with which his sorrow was
surrounded, he could speak freely.
"I know now how I suffered," he said, as he dried his
eyes, "but I do not know even yet, and none other can ever
know, how much your sweet sympathy has been to me today. I
shall know better in time, and believe me that, though I am
not ungrateful now, my gratitude will grow with my understanding. You will let me be like a brother, will you not,
for all our lives, for dear Lucy's sake?"
"For dear Lucy's sake," I said as we clasped hands."Ay,
and for your own sake," he added, "for if a man's esteem and
gratitude are ever worth the winning, you have won mine today. If ever the future should bring to you a time when you
need a man's help, believe me, you will not call in vain. God
grant that no such time may ever come to you to break the
sunshine of your life, but if it should ever come, promise
me that you will let me know."
He was so earnest, and his sorrow was so fresh, that I
felt it would comfort him, so I said, "I promise."
As I came along the corridor I say Mr. Morris looking
out of a window. He turned as he heard my footsteps. "How
is Art?" he said. Then noticing my red eyes, he went on,"Ah,
I see you have been comforting him. Poor old fellow! He
needs it. No one but a woman can help a man when he is in
trouble of the heart, and he had no one to comfort him."
He bore his own trouble so bravely that my heart bled
for him. I saw the manuscript in his hand, and I knew that
when he read it he would realize how much I knew, so I said
to him,"I wish I could comfort all who suffer from the heart.
Will you let me be your friend, and will you come to me for
comfort if you need it? You will know later why I speak."
He saw that I was in earnest, and stooping, took my hand,
and raising it to his lips, kissed it. It seemed but poor
comfort to so brave and unselfish a soul, and impulsively I
bent over and kissed him. The tears rose in his eyes, and
there was a momentary choking in his throat. He said quite
calmly,"Little girl, you will never forget that true hearted
kindness, so long as ever you live!" Then he went into the
study to his friend.
"Little girl!" The very words he had used to Lucy, and,
oh, but he proved himself a friend.